steph's blog

does anybody else ever catch themselves trying to be superman(or woman, as the case may be)? trying to do everything at once. trying to be everything to everybody. i think my overwhelming desire to please people hurts me sometimes. it's so hard for me to say no, and so i hardly ever do. my mom yelled at me last night...she thinks i'm driving too many people around and spending too much money on gas. i guess it's her money, b/c i'm a bum and i'm unemployed. and i suppose many of my friends don't possess cars. but many of them do. so why is it that i always drive people everywhere? is it a need to feel loved and appreciated? or something else?

i think my "superwoman" syndrome hits whenever i feel my life is out of control. whenever life as i know it is threatened. it's a response device. i try to take care of everything so that nothing will slip away. like it is right now. i've prayed about it and i know god will take care of it if only i let him, but i can't seem to give up being superwoman...maybe i'll always be this way...