steph's blog

"i think i'm going to cough my guts out." -me

i woke up around 3 am with a horrible cough, so bad that i was almost choking, that when i wasn't coughing (which didn't leave me a lot of room) i was panting because i couldn't breathe when i was coughing and it was horrible and i had real problems going back to sleep. hopefully this will not happen again tonight, or else i will be a very cranky person tomorrow...maybe i should go to a doctor...but i've seen the doctor more times this year than i have in all of high school...and it's starting to bug me. i've never really been one to get real sick. but my brother said yesterday that i have like a 120% better chance of developing diabetes now that they know he has it. which makes me wonder, will my kids be diabetic? will i be diabetic? yesterday my brother tested my blood sugar at my mom's request. There was nothing wrong with me, the blood sugar level was just fine, but he pricked my finger (he couldn't get any blood out of my arm) and i almost passed out, i had to sit down, which is really odd because usually i don't really get squeamish at the sight of blood, and it just made me think, you know, my brother has to do this six times a day...

too soon, too soon to worry about all of this...