steph's blog

i'm beginning to learn that last week was a pretty bad week for just about everyone. how's about we just throw it away? pretend it never happened and start fresh with this week. i guess the god of this week is the god of last week though, so maybe it's time to roll with the punches...i did not make it into plan II. i was hoping that i would get wait-listed, but that didn't even happen, so with my dreams cruelly smashed by some school to whom, regardless of what they say, i really am just a number, i'm searching for something else to do with my life. it seems that everyone else already has that figured out except me. maybe i am "drifting", as my mom so kindly put it. maybe i'm nothing but dust in the wind right now, a lost ship on an open sea...and, the funny thing is, the more i think about what i want to do with my life, the more i pick my brains over what my real passions are, the more i don't know, and the more i doubt the plans i've already made for myself. but such is the life of a liberal arts major, i suppose. :-) i feel very, very confused and as a result, very very vulnerable right now. i just wish the world would go away...