steph's blog

well, on the eve of the deadline by which all college decisions must be made, i think i've finally made mine...i'm going to go to UT. this has been such a long and complicated road, one on which i've made a lot of mistakes, but after a lot of prayer and careful thought i've decided that this is going to be what's truly best for me in the end. i guess there were a lot of things that made me come to this conclusion...i'm not even sure i can list them all. i guess i just wanted everyone to know. i haven't been real talkative about it unless people asked or unless i really really needed help.

i guess part of the reason that this is so scary is because i write this tonight knowing that tyler won't be with me next year. he will be at A&M, and i'm really really happy for him, i know he'll do great there, and i know that was the right choice for him. but it's scary to think that, in light of recent events, who knows what could happen between us after we start living two hours away from each other. he's done a great job to this end of comforting me and telling me that he'll come down and visit me, i can come and visit him, and we can make things work out, but i'm still scared to death, and i know he is too. i'm scared to be away from all my friends, my immediate family (i'll be moving practically down the street from three of my uncles and their families though...woohoo!), and everything i've known. but there's something inside of me that says that this is going to be an adventure. some voice inside of me that tells me i've been given an amazing opportunity to go out there and grab life by the horns (groan...bad bad pun) and that i'd be foolish not to take advantage of it. so i'm going. and it's going to be a scary thing, but i think somehow god's given me strength to get this far, and he won't quit on me now....