steph's blog

allow me to clarify and explain my last post...i said something because i spent a portion of last night going back over e-mails and IM conversations between tyler and myself and i ran into some that were less than happy because, basically, i was being a jerk. i was leaving him hanging as far as my feelings for him were concerned, and what's worse, i think i used the excuse that "i don't think god wants us to be together" to cover up that fact that i wasn't sure i wanted to be together. so i posted because i know i'm not the only one who's known their actions were hurting someone and yet couldn't seem to stop themselves. why is it that those we love are the ones we hurt? is it because we are confident that they'll come back no matter what? do we take the other person and their feelings for granted?

i guess this is all irrelevant to the present for me because i've told myself and told him that i'll never do that to him again. and i won't. but it's still interesting to think about, no?