steph's blog

ever have one of those days that is just really great until about the last hour you're awake?...

that was my day today. i have this nasty habit of saying whatever comes to mind without any real thought or regard to whether it will affect the person i'm speaking to and in what way. it shows up a lot lately, especially in my relationship with tyler, and it kills me that i just really have a big mouth and i can't seem to control it and all i do lately is hurt him and be a nazi and a hypersensitive jerk about everything. i hate getting off the phone with him and having this sinking feeling in my stomach that i just spent an hour talking to him and it was basically an hour wasted because all i did was piss him off and pour salt in open wounds. i think i'm going to just stop talking. i can't seem to find a happy medium between listening and talking. what on earth is wrong with me?