steph's blog

i think today was a pivotal point in the healing process for me.

maybe it was the fact that i felt cute today and several people told me so. maybe it was because i talked to several people who convinced me that, contrary to what i've been thinking, being single is hardly the end of the world. maybe it was the fact that a girls-only road trip across texas was almost 100% in my spring break future. maybe it was my determination that hoping we'll get back together is a huge waste of energy. whatever the reason was or is, i think i realized today that i can do this, and i can emerge a stronger person. i think i realized today that i deserve someone who loves me and is not afraid to say it or show it, someone who appreciates everything i am, and i will not settle for different. i don't want to say less-what i had might have been enough for some people-but it's not what i want. as kevin pointed out, i'm one of those people who loves being in love. anything other than that leaves me feeling empty. and who wants emptiness for the rest of their lives?

i'm sorry that my blog has become a chronicle of my breakup. it's been on my mind a lot, obviously. but it's not everything. there are other things too, such as, i wonder what kind of trouble i will get in tonight?... oh yes. college kicks ass.