like, OMG

... i just went to the world premiere of john corligiano's third symphony by the UTWE and it was AMAZING. phenonemonal writing and they played the hell out of it. so cool. i'm still shaken from it.

the sadness these past two days has been less of a tidal wave and more of a little trickle of water eating away at my happiness. i won't bore you with all the gory details, but at least in my mind, things are getting more and more complicated. when i smile you can see the hole in my soul right now. i just wish i could let go, that i could cash in my chips and call it a loss and look to the future instead of hopelessly clinging to the remote past. according to dr. anokoletz, that makes me a romantic... ha. ha. ha.

goodnight.