overdue...

... for some of that lovely stephie poetry. so here it comes...

somewhere...

somewhere along the way i was like a child
a wide-eyed wonder
heart beating like thunder
not too long ago i felt a schoolgirl's giddiness,
the experience of a first starry night
and i revelled in the warmth
let my eyes gather the starlight they saw
and hold it captive there like fireflies in a jar
so what when i smiled, my eyes twinkled too.

somewhere along the way my heart spoke to me
of forbidden fruit smiles
for thousands of miles
and i was only too happy to indulge it,
pull the proverbial wool over my eyes
claim for myself a large pair of rose-colored glasses
and enjoy their hue from my back porch.

somewhere along the way my heart broke in pieces
a beautiful mess
in the name of progress
not too long ago i felt an orphan's despair,
the fading of my brightest star from sight
and i could only stand back and watch,
blinking back tears as i watched a part of me die
wondering, so poetically, how i could write an elegy for my heart
so what when i smiled, you saw the sadness too.

somewhere along the way i found a light
a small, fickle flame
but a hope just the same
and i am only too happy to keep it burning
let its smallness conceal where i've been
and its pure fire illuminate my next step
from my back porch out into the world.

hopelessly emo? yes. how i'm feeling? another yes.

going to lhb bible study, however, even if it was just for a few minutes, helped immensely. seeing that people-even people i didn't know very well at all-cared enough to ask, to invite, even to smile. if you read my blog and you know who you are, you rule.

(update, 12:20 am... type-o's corrected. enjoy kids)