i've got nothing to do today but smile

this is not true, by the way, but isn't it a nice thought?

i haven't posted in five days. i haven't even had a good excuse. for some people this is a normality, but if you're a frequent reader here you know it's actually very strange for me to go this long without posting. so sorry.

this weekend was busy, but fun. check flickr soon for pictures. gourd-o-rama (gourdhead's yearly post-bandorama fest) was AMAZING. getting up and going to TBS family brunch at 9 am was not so much. though it was really, really great to see my dad. i can't wait to go home. i miss my family a lot... i saw mattie and his prom pictures and almost cried, i wish i could've been there so much. but 15 more days and i will!

on that note, i'm still having a hard time believing my brother is graduating.

i learned a hottt dance to "lose my breath" by destiny's child for the OA traditions play. one day when i'm bored i'll videotape myself doing it and post it. until then, dream on...

i feel like me just posting about what i do on here is kind of silly and surface-ish. let's go deeper. life has been really quite hard the last week or so until today, when i discovered that i have amazing friends who want to see me happy even when i'm not sure i deserve it. so now i can go forth in life, and it's exhilirating and wonderful and a little scary all at once and i love it.

this summer is going to kick ass for so many reasons.