steph's blog

i need to study really really badly for my calc test, but let me say this first...god is absolutely amazing. yesterday i was completely down in the dumps, overcome by guilt because of stupid things i've done and people i've hurt. i went to this bible study during lunch (i believe it's put on by white's chapel, but anyone's free to go) and wow. the speaker said just what i needed to hear. it was about relationships and waiting on god, and while it wasn't completely relevant to what i was feeling down about, it just gave me so much hope. i still feel this guilt, like i am to blame for a lot of things that went wrong, but now i just have this unspeakable hope in me that it's all going to turn out okay, that the person i've hurt the most will find the strength to heal in god. wow. it feels so wonderful to know that even if the world rejects you there's always god to look forward to, always hope to sustain us...