so cute...

... when people you know get engaged. makes you all warm and fuzzy inside. :-)

i don't know what to say about the charges made against me except to say that i hurt someone really deeply along the way and i do regret that, and i am constantly tortured, especially now that we've met face to face to discuss, that my beliefs of how people should be treated in this world do not mesh well with the way i have treated him since april. however, i refuse to accept 100% responsibility for his current state of mind and for the depression, paranoia, etc. that he was dealing with. some of those things, and their onset, were completely beyond my control, and while i regret they were there and i'm sorry they contributed so greatly to the situation, they are not my responsibility. also, please take what he says about joseph in there with a grain of salt. i know i'm not loyally blind to him (anymore at least) and he was not the cause of all the problems between me and tyler. tyler and i had at least a two-month long fight during the fall about my joining gourdheads long before joseph ever came into the picture because, when it came down to it, he didn't like the company i was choosing. and, when it comes down to it, i don't really like being told who i can't make friends with. the problem itself went away for a while, but that truth kept coming up in various situations until it made its way to the surface when i became joseph's friend, and the rest is history i guess... so, to summarize, i'm not proud of everything i did, but i stand by it, and i refuse to accept any more guilt than i already have. i lament the situation, and perhaps this makes me a huge bitch, but i just want to move on, and i think finally we've at least gotten to a point where this chapter can be closed for both of us.

i won't discuss this anymore here. i've said my piece. if you have questions or you want to yell at me for being a jerk, my screen name is drumchica9. please feel free to give me a ring or a comment or whatever you'd like.