how i spent my winter vacation

what a long, strange trip it's been. i'm finally home after two crazy weeks of traveling to california/colorado and i am exhausted but man was it all a blast. i skiied for three days in winter park and stayed in a condo with 9 other people and lord was it cool. lots and lots of drama and unexpected things, but so much fun in the end. and i skiied a blue-black-my first one. yes, that's right, i rule. nevermind the fact that joseph waited about 20 minutes at the bottom of the mountain for me. i got down. eventually. and i only fell once in the process.

wednesday i'm shadowing a music therapist for lewisville isd which i'm really, really looking forward to. finally, some field work, even if it's only for a day. this is all assuming i get over this cold/sinus infection/whatever the heck i have currently.

so what's up next for me? i intend to be as lazy as possible for the next six days. everyone's gone or back in school (ha!) so i plan on sleeping/recovering from my sickness, watching movies, learning guitar, and calling a few old friends. back in austin the afternoon of the 16th. that's when the real party begins...

and yeah, i'm lame for posting song lyrics on my blog, but whatever. chris carraba = the king of tortured souls just like mine...

i catalog these steps now
decisive and intentioned
precise and patterned specifically to yours
i'm talented at breathing
especially exhaling
so that my chest will rise and fall with yours

i'm careful not to wake you
fearing conversation
it's better just to hold you and keep you pacified
i'm talented with reason
i cover all the angles
i can fail before i ever try

try to understand there's an old mistake that fools will make
and i'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away
won't you hold me now? (i will not bend i will not break)
won't you hold me now? (i will not bend i will not break)

i am fairly agile
i can bend and not break
or i can break and take it with a smile
and i am so resilient
i recover quickly
i'll convince you soon that i am fine

try to understand there's and old mistake that fools will make
and i'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away
won't you hold me now? (i will not bend i will not break)
won't you hold me now? (for you i rise for you i fall)

just hold me close to you...
just hold me close to you...
-dashboard confessional, "bend and not break"