keepin it real
i gotta be honest.
my heart has been all over the place for about a month and a half now. circumstances have come together to produce within me what seems to be overwhelming, powerful sentiment towards certain people and i'm not sure what to do with this. i'm unable to read myself. unable to tell if these are genuine feelings towards other people or just my heart freaking out in this unusual single state, wanting to return to a time in my life where i had SOMEBODY-who exactly that was or is might be irrelevant. in short, i don't trust myself right now, i don't trust how i feel, and i don't trust wherever these feelings come from. i think in time i can learn to trust them again. it's just that i've done some damned foolish things in my life that i'd rather not repeat. no rash decisions. no awkward friendships. i'm hoping i have the emotional strength to ease myself slowly back into the dating scene rather than diving in. because i want to do this right, which to me right now means slowly. besides, we all know i hurt myself trying to dive...
... by the way, if you're reading this and assuming i'm talking about you, it's probably best to assume otherwise. much simpler that way :-)
1 comment:
I know this is an old saying,but it gets better. I have bee where you are at and it really sucks, but it will get better, i promise. Single life isn't that bad, it can be fun and exciting. Go out, have fun and live a little, but never get too confortable becasue just when you think that you never what to get in a relationship again, u find somebody you want to get to know better. anyway, just some foo dfor thought
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